I'm so Thankful I'm Me

IAT = I am thankful

This weekend, we bought the DVD Tangled. What a fabulous telling Disney created with Rapunzel. The theme of the movie is about dreaming. Dreaming for something wonderful.

True stories, but how I used to Daydream!. I remember getting my work done early at school, propping my chin on my hand, and letting my imagination go. I don't remember most of them, but I do remember sometimes dreaming I would have my mother back. Not *A* mother...*MY* mother. Even though I knew things had not been right when my parents were together, I still dreamed of that happy family unit.

Eventually, I gave up that dream. I knew it would never be. My dad moved on. My mom moved on. And my brother and I adjusted and survived. There were many disappointments in my childhood without a mother of my mother own. But, I kept daydreaming.

I remember when I became a teen and my romantic heart began beating. And new dreams came to life. Interestingly, I also began to understand and imagine what my mother might have thought or felt as I considered our intertwined stories and how they came together and split apart. Forgiveness flowed in and a desire to some day attempt to right wrongs. All kept safely in my head and heart.

Another dream that began to blossom, was a family of my own. I don't think I thought much of the whole family deal, but I sure dreamed of my prince charming. There were times I prayed for that future someone. I even sometimes thought I felt the presence of that someone through space and time. I knew I wanted to be his special someone and I made promises that would keep only for him.

The point of this post is dreams, not the whole story. So, we fast forward 30 years to where I am now. Through years of trial and struggle and beginning to really know myself. All of it, with someone wonderful at my side. First, one wonderful person, then another, and another, and another, until just me, became us, and turned into a family. And far many more laughs and joy and success, than trial and struggle.

There are still trials and major disappointments, but not in ways I continue to see others dear to me struggle. I watched Tangled tonight and saw that my rocky beginning has magically changed into something of a dreamland...a fairy tale. And I have learned that I am a big part of the creation of that story. I hope I continue to create dreams.

No, I don't sing and dance and twirl through each day. Some days are bland and boring. But I don't have to worry about food in my children's mouths. I don't worry where we will lay our heads. I know that my marriage is secure. I delight in the children that surround me near and far. And I am ever so grateful that a divine Someone led me by the hand, step by step, into my nearly fairytale life.

Every Disney movie has villains and heroes, as well as trials and triumphs. And my life has those too. But, I loved the lyrics in the song I See the Light. I felt like they described my life to some degree. And I felt happy and thankful. I don't have hair like Rapunzel, but The Bish sure has hair like Flynn, well, plus a lot of grey. Here is my favorite scene and song (that I identify with) from Tangled.

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I'm so Thankful I'm Me

IAT = I am thankful

This weekend, we bought the DVD Tangled. What a fabulous telling Disney created with Rapunzel. The theme of the movie is about dreaming. Dreaming for something wonderful.

True stories, but how I used to Daydream!. I remember getting my work done early at school, propping my chin on my hand, and letting my imagination go. I don't remember most of them, but I do remember sometimes dreaming I would have my mother back. Not *A* mother...*MY* mother. Even though I knew things had not been right when my parents were together, I still dreamed of that happy family unit.

Eventually, I gave up that dream. I knew it would never be. My dad moved on. My mom moved on. And my brother and I adjusted and survived. There were many disappointments in my childhood without a mother of my mother own. But, I kept daydreaming.

I remember when I became a teen and my romantic heart began beating. And new dreams came to life. Interestingly, I also began to understand and imagine what my mother might have thought or felt as I considered our intertwined stories and how they came together and split apart. Forgiveness flowed in and a desire to some day attempt to right wrongs. All kept safely in my head and heart.

Another dream that began to blossom, was a family of my own. I don't think I thought much of the whole family deal, but I sure dreamed of my prince charming. There were times I prayed for that future someone. I even sometimes thought I felt the presence of that someone through space and time. I knew I wanted to be his special someone and I made promises that would keep only for him.

The point of this post is dreams, not the whole story. So, we fast forward 30 years to where I am now. Through years of trial and struggle and beginning to really know myself. All of it, with someone wonderful at my side. First, one wonderful person, then another, and another, and another, until just me, became us, and turned into a family. And far many more laughs and joy and success, than trial and struggle.

There are still trials and major disappointments, but not in ways I continue to see others dear to me struggle. I watched Tangled tonight and saw that my rocky beginning has magically changed into something of a dreamland...a fairy tale. And I have learned that I am a big part of the creation of that story. I hope I continue to create dreams.

No, I don't sing and dance and twirl through each day. Some days are bland and boring. But I don't have to worry about food in my children's mouths. I don't worry where we will lay our heads. I know that my marriage is secure. I delight in the children that surround me near and far. And I am ever so grateful that a divine Someone led me by the hand, step by step, into my nearly fairytale life.

Every Disney movie has villains and heroes, as well as trials and triumphs. And my life has those too. But, I loved the lyrics in the song I See the Light. I felt like they described my life to some degree. And I felt happy and thankful. I don't have hair like Rapunzel, but The Bish sure has hair like Flynn, well, plus a lot of grey. Here is my favorite scene and song (that I identify with) from Tangled.



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